Intrusive Thoughts - Natalie Jane

I'm historically heartbroken

Drownin' in my own emotions

One minute away from breakin' down, down, down

I'm always leavin' empty-handed

No one wants a heart that's damaged

Only know a love that lets me down, down, down

Oh, starin' contest with the walls

I'm givin' in to my intrusive thoughts

What if I never find anybody to love

Or I finally get the chance and I fuck it all up?

'Cause I can't get hurt if I'm the first one to leave

Woah, what if I get to heaven and it's not even real

And I die before tellin' you how I really feel?

'Cause it feels like hell and I just can't help but think

That maybe love's not for me

If you don't look too closely

You can't even tell I'm lonely

Even though it keeps me up at night, night, night

I try to keep myself distracted

But I got all these awful habits

Of listenin' to voices in my mind, mind, mind

Oh, starin' contest with the walls

I'm givin' in to my intrusive thoughts, oh

What if I never find anybody to love

Or I finally get the chance and I fuck it all up?

'Cause I can't get hurt if I'm the first one to leave, woah-oh

What if I get to heaven and it's not even real

And I die before tellin' you how I really feel?

'Cause it feels like hell and I just can't help, but think

Maybe love's not for me, oh-oh

Maybe love's not for me, oh-oh-oh

Maybe love's not for me

Maybe love's not for me

For me, for me, for me

Maybe love's not for me